Balloons ! Apples!
Babies and your smile
Things I love
Parks and sitting awhile

Parades! Presents!
Kittens and your laugh
Things I love
Fishing and the raft

Ice cream! Music!
Mountains and our talks
Things I love
Sunsets and morning walks


Cotton candy! Peanuts!
Myself and you
Things I love
Clowns and morning dew

Fears, monsters and insecurity diminish
Worms don't eat my soul and make me cry
Hatred, boogiemen and the past fade
Attics are all gone and spiders die.

Walls of fear
Built from utter terror
Slowly torn down
Left open in part
But rebuilt of golden
Blocks of pure love
Windows now, eyes to
See and guard
Doors of oak
To shut out the dark

Allowing "TheRapist"

From across the room
You look so sure of yourself
But I know
I've been there
I sense your fears

My own self worth is low
I am so lost and alone
But you know
You have been here
You feel my pain

We know love and compassion
We know hurt and confusion
I'll trust you to touch my soul
May I touch you?

Gifts to me

Myriad dreams flying high in the sky
The land like grains of sand in my hand
Whispered thoughts free as the waves
On a beach
Love so encompassing but soft as
A gentle rain
These are special gifts I give to me

TheRapist

I need to be held.
Someone hold me
Rock me
Nurture me
In a safe place
Where I can trust
And not be used
I come again to one
Who understands my need
And respects my body
And my soul
I am held
With integrity and caring
I learn
That it is possible
To be loved

Thursdays and The Rapist

Her words
Puts away the monsters
Her touch
Locks the death door
Her look
Can open the life door
Her caring
Takes away the worms
And worms can eat your soul

Voids

Children always around loving
Old men that need me
Spectacular sunsets and sunrises
Mountains kissed by the sun
Fields painted with the dew
All this is mine to behold
But it never fills me up
The void of voids
Dwells in my soul
Searching, wandering, wanting

I think I need you
I hold you and you me
We become drenched in love
But still I feel so alone
How can I ever be filled?
I look through the eyes of hope
Trying not to give up
Fighting the urge to die
Always trusting I'll be whole
And knowing I will be disappointed
I still break for rainbows